Pledge Of Allegiance

August 24, 2016

Posted by Ran Isner

A little over 11 years ago I moved to the US to study acting. After my freshmen year I met my wife and 4 years later we got married. All my life people told me that I should live in America because I know everything there is to know about American pop culture that i might as well be American.

One never knows where life will take them and my life happened to bring me here. I believe wholeheartedly that I was meant to come here so I could meet my amazing wife. I was meant to be on this journey that brought me here and has me writing these words. With her I feel that I am right where I need to be, and we have two beautiful children which further affirms my belief.

Not too long ago I started my naturalization process and by the end of this process I will be an American citizen. I like to keep myself up to date on what happens in this country and basically be well informed. The way I see it is, if I live here I might as well have a say in where this country is headed.

This decision was not a difficult one to make. My life is here, my family is here and this is where I want to be. I’m not saying I don’t miss Israel, I do, and I think that I sometimes block those emotions from coming out because I feel guilty. I feel that I haven’t been in touch with my Israeli self and that includes introducing Israel and it’s customs to my children. I have wanted to assimilate so much to make it easy on myself that I have been neglecting my roots. As I am writing these words I am getting very emotional because I don;t want to feel that guilt anymore. The fact that I am becoming an Amrican doesn’t mean that I must forget where I came from.

Today I went to the USCIS processing center for my biometrics. That means that They took my fingerprints, a photo and my signature for record keeping. I realized that that’s the signature is going to be on my passport eventually! It wasn’t after I left there that I really understood the magnitude of it all. At the naturalization ceremony, you pledge to renounce your allegiance to any other country and as I was reading those words I felt a pinch. At that moment, when I let it sink in, it felt like I had given something up right then and there. Fun fact! Israel is one of the only countries that the US allows it’s citizens keep their citizenship thus becoming a dual citizen.

I am very grateful to be in the position I’m in and I am not taking it for granted. I know that I have exhibited some upper limit symptoms this week because I have been off my routine and have been allowing myself to take my eyes off the prize. This is a great thing that’s happening yet my mind and my ego are so afraid of change that they convince me that I shouldn’t be this happy.

Another thing I am grateful for? This blog. This medium a gives me the opportunity to let things out. It allows me to be present, raw and real and be who I really am. No masks, not stories, only truth.

Thank you all for taking the time to read this, I really appreciate it.

Posted by Ran Isner

This week was all about my upper limits. 

On Wednesday on our team call I suggested I would talk about upper limits because it’s somethings that resonates with me and I thought it would be helpful for the team to understand more about that. When I was preparing for the call I realized I forgot the book and whatever notes I had from it. I quickly understood what was happening, I was stepping into a leader’s role and as excited I was about that, my mind was trying to hold me back from it because it was unfamiliar.

Just being able to recognize that was such a gift because in the past I would freak out and I didn’t this time. I was so calm about it that I made new notes and the call was fine.

I am reaching the point where I am going to the next level and my resistance is in full force. I’m letting myself off the hook for things I shouldn’t and I know I can push myself even further. The thing is this has happened many times before but I was oblivious to it. All I knew was the overwhelm and the anxiety and I was comfortable with that.

When it comes to working on yourself, the work is ongoing. The work is not about fixing because there is nothing to be fixed, it’s about growth and you never stop growing. 

I started a 16 week physical transformation challenge after coming back from our company’s even in Vegas because I understand that the work never stops and through this my spirit and soul are also getting the work they need to sustain and nourish me.

I understand now that in order to maintain this feeling of elation and satisfaction I must immerse myself in this work.

Now, more than ever I am ready to do that because I never want to lose this feeling, why would I.

Week 11 results:

Weight: 155.2( +1.6 since last week, – 1.5 since start)

Cleanse days- 2

Workouts- 2(  1 kickboxing and 1 Jiu Jitsu)

Book I am reading- The Big Leap by Gay Hendricks

What I want to be acknowledged for this week: 

I went on the call and slated it.

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