Push it!

July 27, 2016

Yesterday I went to my Kickboxing class and at the end of the class I said to the instructor “you know, I felt better in last week’s class” and he said to me “I think the reason why you felt the  last class was easier is because you pushed yourself harder this class”. I wasn’t aware I was pushing myself harder, but he most certainly did.

I was tired after class. I haven’t pushed myself this hard in a very long time and that is exactly why I joined this Dojo. I know myself well enough by now and I know that I require the structure of an instructor led class and I require to train with people who push me and motivate me. I require that community because that’s where I thrive. I enjoy seeing people achieve goals they never thought possible and it inspires me to do the same. For most of my life I have been part of a team, whether it was gymnastics, a youth singing group or as a part of an acting conservatory in college, I always enjoyed being part of a community.

In all of those different environments I was able to achieve success. I was national champion in gymnastics. I was in my element performing on stage with my friends at the youth singing group. In college I graduated with honors and earned a bachelor of fine arts degree. I know that it was because of the people I surrounded myself with.

Although I achieved all of this success, and I am finally in a space where I can acknowledge myself for it and not discount it and diminish it, I still struggle with self doubt and stepping into my greatness. The struggle doesn’t exist!Iit’s made up. Nothing is hard, we have been preconditioned to describe things as hard and as a struggle and we give it a negative connotation.

During class, the instructor keeps reminding us to smile because a smile is associated with a positive experience. There is no reason why pushing yourself to your limit should make you grimace instead of having a big old smile. After all, the reason we push ourselves beyond what we thought was possible is to better ourselves, it is to be the people we know deep in our core we were meant to be and that’s quite a reason to smile if you ask me.

Push it! And smile while you do it.



The two newbies at Kickboxing with Sempai

Posted by Ran Isner

The son of the founders of the company my wife and I are partnered with was on our team call last night and he said something that really hit me in the gut.”the noise is the loudest when we’re not in action”. WHOA! He said a very simple thing, nothing out of the ordinary but the simplicity is what made it so powerful.

I almost felt like he was talking directly to me because the noise in my head has been so fucking loud that it has debilitated me for so long. It has paralyzed me, has kept me from taking action and kept me from being the person I know I can be and doing the things I was meant to do.

On Sunday night I was debating whether or not to do a 2 day deep cleanse. According to my 16 week challenge schedule I was supposed to do it anyway but the noise was going to do it’s thing again and talk me out of it. At that moment I decided that I WANT to do the deep cleanse! I chose to do it and for the next two days I felt amazing. I hydrated like a crazy person and on top of that, I decided that I am going to take my first ever kickboxing class last night. I want to remind you, I have been cleansing for two days so going to the class is probably a bad idea. See? That’s what the noise was trying to get through to me but I was in action, so I quieted the noise and I felt amazing after that class.

The bottom line is that when we are in action, the noise almost becomes a non-factor, it becomes so quiet that you almost forget that it exists. The way I felt last night after completing the 2 day deep cleanse and after taking the class was intoxicating. I was so full of energy and I just can’t believe that I have been depriving myself of this feeling for such a long time.

I have been missing in action for a very long time and now I am drowning the noise. The noise is just that, noise, and it is undeserving of my attention anymore!

What I Gained When I Lost

February 21, 2016


It’s now been a week since my “Closet Edit” with Brandi Johnson and I am really happy with the results. Check out all the bags of clothes I got out of my closet that was just clogging up space and not working for me!

This styling session was a goal of mine for a long time, and I promised myself when I got to a certain weight loss goal I would go for it! Losing weight for me isn’t just about releasing weight but also about what I’m gaining! I never would have had the confidence to invite someone into my closet before. I also wouldn’t have had any confidence in my appearance to put myself out there to learn more about myself. I’ve gained confidence, acceptance and love of my own body. That’s pretty life changing for me!

Brandi provided me with this wonderful summary of my style (which I had never really thought about before) and I have a new found confidence around clothes that I didn’t have before.

“Your best style is Naturally Classic. Natural is your primary style base. Close-fitting silhouettes in medium scale is what you’re after. Tops that skim your natural waist to define it but don’t cling; fitted, straight skirts and straight and slightly bootcut pants are what you’re after. The classic element comes into play more so in your styling. Clean lines will lend themselves to a more classic and polished feel, but take care to avoid anything stiff fabrics or anything that looks restrictive. For example, you can do a classically styled button down shirt, but the natural element demands that the shirt be in a lightweight fabric with some movement, rather than a stiff cotton poplin.
Also, take care to avoid anything “cutesy” or gamine in its styling. Stay with organic and natural style details. ”

Who doesn’t love being called Naturally Classic?? Thanks Brandi for pulling my natural beauty out of me!

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