What a way to finish up this challenge, taking my final photos on election day as emotions and anxieties were running high.  I didn’t have the best week that I thought I would have as I ended this challenge – in fact I had a challenging week.  I succumbed to temptation, laziness, irritability and a roller coaster of emotions (and this was all before Election Day!). What can I say? I get super moody when I have PMS and the last two months have been especially hard.  Maybe it’s because I haven’t been sleeping as well.  Maybe it’s because my will power has faded.  Maybe it’s because I’ve reached a new level and I’m self-sabotaging.  Honestly, it could be all of these things or none of these things.  Some weeks you just gotta keep swimming and hope it all comes together.

It’s also really easy when things don’t go our way to give up on ourselves.  After the late night with the election results, believe me, I didn’t want to go to the gym this morning. But I knew that if I skipped it because of external factors it would set me back and I would regret it.  So I went and I got to work out and get some of the feelings out of my system in a healthy way (read: not through eating a sleeve of cookies).  No matter what the final outcome of this challenge was, I knew that the time I spend working on myself was never going to be something I would regret.  These 23 weeks were going to pass anyway, at least I made them count by staying the course and being true to myself.

I am very proud that I reached a new “lowest weight” since 2010.  I am very proud that I kept my word and wrote and blogged as much as I did.  I am very moved by all of the people who cheered me on and who took on their own “Light Yourself On Fire” challenges. I haven’t really thought about what the future of this challenge will hold for me just yet, but I do know what my goals are for the rest of the year.

Looking forward to 2017 I am excited for my new endeavor, the Parents Passion Project to light the fires under parents to reignite their passions.  Learn more here.

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Last night I graduated to a white-blue belt in my Kickboxing practice. As part of the graduation process I was required to write an essay and do one hour of community service.
In the essay I was asked to write about what I have gained since beginning my practice and if I have noticed a change in myself. What came out were honest words of gratitude and acceptance. 

I am grateful because this practice has allowed me to join a community that embraces everyone with no judgement, a community that supports one another and not expects something in return and a community that reminds you that it’s not about the result, but about the process. 

The professor said something that even though I’ve heard it before, it resonated with me in that moment. He said that the week after earning the belt is very important. It is important because that is when people take their foot of the gas and decide that it’s time for a break and that’s why one should push even more. 

The work doesn’t stop just because you went up a belt (insert whatever accomplishment that suits your situation) if anything it becomes more intense and every level becomes more meaningful because it means that you are taking one step closer to where you want to be. Even after you are a black belt, the work always continues because we never stop learning.

Another thing I wrote about in my essay is how much this school is in alignment with who I am and who I am striving to become. I want to surround myself with people who share the same values as I do and are committed to creating a culture of empowerment and positivity. Building people up is so much more fun than tearing them down.

I am grateful every time I get on that mat and am looking forward to the journey ahead.

Marie got her groove back this week!! I don’t know if it was cleansing, finally getting antibiotics in my body or the grilled cheese I allowed myself to have, but I definitely felt a shift this week.  I was in a bit of a slump feeling a little bored, a little sorry for myself (everyone else gets to eat pizza!) and a little cocky too (sure why not have gluten!) that just created a perfect storm in my brain of feeling not myself lately.

I was also sick with bronchitis, which I finally went to the doctor for and get meds for, so I’m feeling much much better.  Getting sick is just the perfect reason to throw in the towel sometimes, and I didn’t totally do it this past month, but I did with a bunch of stuff.

Bad habits I let sneak back into life in the past month

  • watching tv before bed
  • ordering thai food takeout instead of cooking like 1x a week
  • staying up too late
  • winging it and not bullet journalling
  • skipping my morning shake!!! eeek I said it out loud
  • eating gluten
  • skipping the gym on Sunday mornings because I was tired and wanted to snuggle my babies

Transformation is all about getting UNCOMFORTABLE and doing new things, and I was doing that for 16 weeks and then slipped back into COMFORTABLE.  Because, human.

So now that’s off my chest, I can move on! And redirect these to better habits.

  • watching tv before bed  –> reading before bed
  • ordering thai food takeout instead of cooking like 1x a week –> choosing a dedicated “take out” night with my family so that its not a result of laziness, but more of a planned thing
  • staying up too late –> in bed by 11!
  • winging it and not bullet journalling –> bullet journal every (damn) day
  • skipping my morning shake!!! eeek I said it out loud –> commit to drinking my shake every morning no matter what
  • eating gluten –> remembering how good I felt without the gluten in my body
  • skipping the gym on Sunday mornings because I was tired and wanted to snuggle my babies  –> making a commitment to get to the gym once each weekend and knowing that snuggling won’t get me those Michelle Obama arms

Week 21 Results

Weight: 184.8 (-12.4 since start, -5.2 change since last week)

Cleanse days completed this week: 2

Workouts: 2

Non-Scale Victory:  Went down another size in clothes.  This time it was in a top from LulaRoe that I used to wear a Small in (they run very big) and now I can wear the XS!  What a thrill, I’ve never worn an XS size in anything!

What I want to be acknowledged for this week: Getting back into my bullet journal this week.  I was doing really well with it and then kinda fell off once school started.  I noticed that when I have my tasks written I get so much more done.  So I’m glad I got back into this week and started planning my tasks ahead for better time management and productivity.

Book I am reading this week: Ugh, still working on this

Song that inspired this week’s title:  Let the Groove Get In, by Justin Timberlake

Finally this week I went to the urgent care and got diagnosed with Bronchitis.  Finally.  My 90 year old grandmother was like, “Don’t you think you should have gone sooner?” Maybe!! I’ve been suffering for about 6 weeks, so yea maybe!! But honestly it usually takes me a month to get over a cough so I didn’t really even think about the doctor until week 6 began.

Now that I’ve got some meds in me and I’m not coughing up a lung, I got some of my energy back! I’ve really been struggling these last few weeks to keep up the pace of kids, work, chorus, landmark, housework, blogs, boot camp, and trying to have a little fun on the weekends.  Even this week I didn’t write this blog on time and I wasn’t able to film a video blog.

When I don’t complete my tasks on time it makes me feel like a lesser version of myself.  I relate to myself differently and I end up feeling like crap –> wanting to eat crap.  That’s kinda how my life goes.

Feel like crap –> want to eat crap –> eat crap –> Feel like crap —> repeat

I know what I know about what to eat, what not to eat, when to exercise, when hunger is real, when it’s phantom (emotional) hunger.  And I’ve been SO GOOD about keeping to my no dairy/egg lifestyle that it would be shame to give it all back. Especially when I feel better without it.  But I think with the change of season and feeling under the weather, I faced some new challenges. Week 2o was a little bit of a wash, but I vow to make week 21 an improvement and get back to myself.

Week 20 Results

Weight: 190 (-7.2 since start, +1.4 change since last week)

Cleanse days completed this week: 0

Workouts: 2

Non-Scale Victory:  I attended an event this week and bumped into someone I haven’t seen in a year!  She said “You look great!” and I was thrilled.  Thank you!

What I want to be acknowledged for this week: Definitely getting to boot camp twice, because it wasn’t this week with Daphne waking us up at 5am all week.  Wednesday morning I seriously considering skipping it and napping instead, but I pushed through!

Book I am reading this week: Hell, I haven’t  been reading, I commit to picking this up again in the upcoming week

Song that inspired this week’s title:  I Know What I Know, by Paul Simon

I’m learning to recieve

October 14, 2016

Posted by Ran Isner

Why is it so difficult for people to receive? Whether it’s compliment or money or whatever it is. Sometimes just getting a hug seems weird to people. I am one of those people as well, I mean I never refuse a hug because I’m a hugger but I do have trouble receiving.

I think that we underestimate the impact that receiving something has on us as human beings because we are so quick to dismiss the very thing that people want to give us. How many times have you downplayed a compliment by tearing yourself down? How many times have you refused a money offering, big or small saying “it’s not necessary”? 

I am slowly learning that receiving does not make me pompous or greedy, it simply means I bring value. We don’t think of ourselves as valuable enough and often times it holds us back from receiving or being open to new opportunities and end up attracting situations that validate the notion that we have no value.

I have learned to be grateful and graceful when being complimented and I feel the difference in the way it feels in my body. I no longer feel discomfort and this empty feeling of unworthiness, instead I feel pride and and a sense of accomplishment. A person would not offer a compliment if it isn’t genuine, that’s at least how I feel.

Having the ability to receive has brought back people into my life that I haven’t seen in decades. This past weekend I reconnected with someone who I went to elementary school with. We are friends on Facebook and have been talking about getting together for over a year and finally made it happen. He is a filmmaker who didn’t know that I was an actor because I have not allowed myself to receive that title. It doesn’t matter that it’s been years since I set foot on a theater stage, the passion for acting has never gone away and acting is part of my identity. I was finally open to receiving it and theopportunity presented itself. This person has also been following my journey and is completely inspired by it. These are the people I want to attract and now it’s possible because I am open to receive.

Allow yourself to receive, you deserve it.

Me and my elementary school buddy

Are we all Lost Stars? Trying to light up the dark? (song lyrics)

I’m a little lost this week.  I feel good! But I failed at my 2 day deep cleanse when at 6pm I caved and ate dinner.  Turns out I wasn’t the only one this week who struggled.  I opened Facebook and saw that Peta Kelly had the same problem as me!

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I admit, it made me feel better!! One thing I know is that it’s important to listen to your body, and my body was just not feeling the whole cleanse thing this week.  I walked over 15,000 steps yesterday, and ate nothing till 6pm, so girl had to eat!!  Plus, I’ve been coughing and sick for about a month (which I know sounds ridiculous, but it takes me a really long to get rid of a cough due to my allergies).  It’s really been a struggle to keep up with my workouts being sick.  I have been able to maintain going once a week at least. Kids having multiple days off from school, getting sick, and the general October-ness of life can really throw things off if you let it.  And believe me, I am trying not to let it!  It’s still struggle though.

The goods news this week is that I hit my one year anniversary of attending New Body Bootcamp.img_4056

I remember being really nervous my first few classes because I was afraid to be the “fattest girl in the class”.  I’m glad to report I don’t think like that anymore.  It’s taken a lot of self development to realize not everything is about me and my weight.  I am not defined by a number on the scale.  Having said that, I’m very happy to be 18lbs lighter than this day last year.  I’ve also lowered my body fat percentage by 4.2% and released 10 inches.  Not to mention going down a clothing size or 2 and reduced my BMI by 3pts!! Wow when you look at it that way, it’s the start of my brand new ending.

Week 19 Results

Weight: 188.6 (-8.6 since start, +3.4 change since last week)

Cleanse days completed this week: 0

Workouts: 1

Non-Scale Victory:  Getting compliments from people I haven’t seen in a few months is always a highlight of my week.  My business coach Jeffery Combs even acknowledged me at an event of his on Saturday and hearing everyone clap for me was a victory for sure!

What I want to be acknowledged for this week: Continued working on my new project the #ParentsPassionProject. I’ve started to talking to some people about joining me and I’m constantly getting out of my comfort zone to spread the word. Check out my video launching the idea!

Book I am reading this week: Love Louder, by Preston Smiles  (I promise to finish it this week!!)

Song that inspired this week’s title: Lost Stars, by Adam Levine from the movie Begin Again

 

Graduation

October 9, 2016

Doesn’t it feel like graduating when you complete something you have been working very hard on? Graduating also means that now it’s time to move on and create something new.

On Oct. 26 I am graduating from white belt at Kickboxing and I am really excited. It affirms all of my hard work and commitment to bettering myself. Practicing both Jiu Jitsu and kickboxing has really been instrumental for me on the challenge and what I am most happy about is that I am still very much committed to my growth as a practitioner.

I was afraid I might give up on myself and start going less and less but I really am enjoying my practice. Over the years it’s been  challenge for me to keep up with exercising because it seemed like more of a chore to me than anything else. What I really wanted was the results but wasn’t willing to put in the work. It’s been like this for most of my life where I wanted to do things but when I realized the work that was involved I would quit.

Yesterday Marie and I went to another one of Jeff Combs’s events in Long Island and he was talking about paying the dues in order to be successful. In order to be successful we have to put the work in and know that the process is just as important, if not more, than the result. We can have a result in mind but until we are actually in the process we don’t know that journey will lead us.

In the couple of weeks since the completion of the challenge I have been catching the old thought creeping in. you know, the ones of my ego telling me that I won’t be able to sustain all of the things that I accomplished because I am not meant to hold on to the good because the good is never meant to last.

This graduation is proof that I am moving in the right direction and that I am meant to do bigger things. I must keep paying my dues and I will get to where I want to go.

In a way I have graduated to a new level of being and so the fact that these are happening simultaneously is no coincidence.

 

You guys, I cooked a bunch this week, deep cleansed, had a cold, had several appointments, took my kid to karate TWICE, and baked muffins.  Dude, I’m exhausted and it’s only Wednesday.  The new routine of school and not having summer as an excuse to blow off cooking is like a whole new world.  Every year I make this transition but it is always a challenge.  So I salute all you moms and dads out there working on packing your kids lunch box and still getting yourself to the gym.  It’s hard, it’s so annoyingly hard!

Sometimes, it’s also hard for me to write a blog every week because I’m outta shit to say.   That’s kinda how this “healthy living” thing goes.  You fall into a routine and it’s not super exciting all the time.  You just keeping clicking along.  And that’s me this week.  I’m keeping my head above water and I’m chugging along with all my to-dos (eat, sleep, workout, pack the lunchbox).

Did I mention I saw “Something Rotten” on Broadway this week too?

Week 18 Results

Weight: 185.2 (-12 since start, -3.6 change since last week)

Cleanse days completed this week: 2

Workouts: 1

Non-Scale Victory:  Going down a size in clothes is so rewarding I can’t even tell you.  My skirts that are a size large are a little big and my jeans that are size 14 are definitely too big.  I’ve been on the other end of this (when the sizes go up) and it’s not fun to have to go to the store for bigger clothes.  I have been selling my bigger clothes on ebay for practically nothing just hoping that someone else can use them since they are in great shape.  Maybe they are going down a size too and need new clothes 🙂

What I want to be acknowledged for this week:  This week I started my final course in the Curriculum for Living and came up with an idea for a kick-ass project called #ParentsPassionProject.  Check out my video launching the idea!

Book I am reading this week: Love Louder, by Preston Smiles

Song that inspired this week’s title: It’s Hard to be the Bard, from Something Rotten

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So, my first blog post after completing the “Light Yourself On Fire” challenge… I must say I was looking forward to writing this because it’s become part of my routine and I like the accountability aspect of it.

In the several days after completing the challenge I have experienced a lot of things. There was the exhilaration of completing it, then there was a little sadness that it ended, after that came the letdown and my mind saying “You deserve a break”(some indulgent eating involved) and then came the awareness to it and finally the acceptance.

I’m are that I’m not the only one that’s experienced these things after a monumental accomplishment and that is awesome because it reminds me I’m human. I realize that it takes me back to the same old programming in my brain and also, Rome wasn’t built in a day. What is important is the awareness I bring to it because when one recognizes it, it is much easier to address it once you embrace it.

Embracing the “bad” is crucial even though it’s not really bad, it’s proof that one is going in the right direction. If we don’t have these moments where we revert to our old patterns it means that we didn’t push forward too begin with. It’s the balance of breakdowns and breakthroughs that makes this journey worth while.

I am beginning to understand just how instrumental this give and take between the two is, as it lends itself to gaining perspective for the past and how one can change their mindset in the present moment and shift one’s consciousness towards the breakthrough they seek to have or receive unexpectedly. That awareness to this has helped shift my mindset to a more positive one that allows for growth instead of regression.

The mind body connection is a fascinating thing because of how prevalent it is in our lives. Our mind commands our body to do certain things because of how it perceives a given situation and it affects our wellbeing on a very basic level. Our bodies do not function the same when we feel stressed and anxious. We feel bogged down, exhausted and overall yucky. Luckily, our minds do not operate independently and we can determine what thoughts we have.

Even though I took my foot of the gas for a couple of days, I was able to redirect my thoughts and my mindset to where I am in action and feeling great about myself . My body is reacting accordingly. You see, the way I see it, our body wants to be the healthiest it can be and our mind has a different idea so it wants to control our body in the way it used to.

There is a new Sheriff in town, and it wants my body to feel amazing!

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Here’s the official “after” photos for my 16 week Light Yourself On Fire challenge! I’ve had a few more days to reflect on it since completing on Wednesday and I realized this challenge was way more about transforming my mindset than about losing weight (although the 13.6lbs I lost was great! and I shaved 2 points off my BMI!!)

I noticed that I’m happier, calmer, and enjoying life so much more since I started this challenge. i notice myself laughing more with my kids and complaining less. I feel like I’m on fire! That’s why I’m going to keep going until my maintenance photos are due in November – why stop if I feel so great?? What can you transform in 16 weeks?? Don’t limit yourself!

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Here we are, the final post of the “Light Yourself On Fire” challenge and the emotions are bittersweet. On the one hand, I am sad that it’s come to an end because I have put so much into it. On the other hand, I am happy because I know that my journey doesn’t end here.

I have been reflecting on this 16 week journey for the past couple of days and I cannot believe how much was accomplished during the time. I have created a healthy routine, I have held myself accountable to you and I have let go of things that have not been serving me and I was not open enough to acknowledge.

The most important one and the one that was affecting me the most was the overwhelming sense of guilt I’ve been living in for over a decade now. I have not allowed myself to be who I really was because I was feeling guilty about leaving my home in Israel and creating a new home here in the US. Guilt has almost broken up my marriage because I  refused to see that my actions were not serving the best interest of my family, meaning my wife and children, even though they are the world to me and I cannot imagine my life without them in it.

Owning up to me guilt has been instrumental in my transformation because it go me to reconnect with ME again and my soul so desperately needed that. It has deepened my connection with my wife because now I can truly express myself without any judgement and guilt. I am able to be present with my children and enjoy the moments we get to spend together. For the longest time I was so unhappy with who I have become and I felt that there was no hope.

Working on myself and understanding the events that have shaped my life have allowed me to be open to experience new things. Peta Kelly’s “The New Way Live” event in May is what inspired the “Light Yourself On Fire” challenge because it spoke about being the first one to do something so you can inspire others to do the same. The theme was about finding your jeaniius, the one thing that you can do so well that it is your moral obligation to share it with the world. I know now that I was put on this earth to change lives, to encourage people to find their own jeaniius and make a difference in this world. I gave myself the permission to operate from the space of love because I know n my bones that it emirates from me so brightly and that people deserve to know that they are loved and that they have permission to love, themselves and others. I call meek The Love Warrior because  love is the one thing worth fighting for.

I express gratitude every day and am thankful that I am where I am and that I am doing what aligns with my soul and that I am practicing to approach every thing I do with love.

I would like to thank you all for being a part of this journey and for holding me accountable to be the most honest, real me that I can be and for being my sounding board for my breakdowns and breakthroughs. This might mark the end of this challenge but it is most certainly not the end of this journey, it is merely the beginning. Life is lived in the present moment so it can never truly be the end.

Results:

Weight: 151.0( -5.5 since last week, -5.6 since start)

Cleanse days: 16 total for the challenge

Workouts: 42 ( 6 short of goal)

Books I have read:

  1. Love Louder by Preston Smiles
  2. The War Of Art by Steven Pressfield
  3. The Big Leap By Gay Hendricks
  4. 50 Ways To Yay by Alexi Panos

What I would like to be acknowledged for this challenge:

I would like to be acknowledged for finally loving myself enough so I could find the Ran that has been absent all these years. The Ran that dimmed his light so much that he was depriving the world of his true gift and his true sense of purpose. I would like to be acknowledged for focusing on the process and not the result.

I am a stand for all of you to find or re-discover what it is that ignites your soul and a stand for love and the notion that we all make an impact in other people’s lives. How are you going to light yourself on fire?

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Marie & Ran Performing, 2015

Here’s a list of all the songs that inspired my Blog Titles for the Light Yourself on Fire challenge.  Music is a big part of my life so I am happy to have incorporated it into the challenge this way! Enjoy!

Week 1 – The Devil Within, by Digital Daggers

Week 2 – Silent Night, Sung by Bing Crosby

Week 3 – Big Shot, by Billy Joel

Week 4 – Put a Ring On It , by Beyoncé

Week 5 – It Don’t Come Easy, by Ringo Starr

Week 6 – Don’t Blow It, by Eyes Lips Eyes and Honorable Mention: Get Over It, by Ok Go

Week 7 – Anything Could Happen, by Ellie Goulding

Week 8 – You Only Wake Up When’s It Over, performed by Marie & Ran Isner

Week 9 – What’s Life Without Losers, by Mikhael Paskalev

Week 10 – Delirious, by Steve Aoki ft. Kid Ink

Week 11 – Can’t Hold Us, by Macklemore & Ryan Lewis

Week 12 – Birthday, performed by Paul McCartney & Ringo Starr, live at Radio City Music Hall 7/7/10, because I was there and I saw it live!

Week 13 – Carry That Weight, by The Beatles

Week 14 – Imma Be, by Black Eyed Peas

Week 15 – Stars 4-Ever, by Robyn

Week 16 – Just Like Fire, by Pink

 

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Today my wife completed her “Light Yourself On Fire” challenge and I could not be more proud of her than I am right now. The morning started with her last way in and she was able to break her lowest weight since her pregnancy with our second child. This, by all means is an awesome result but she didn’t reach the goal she set for herself. Do you know what the most beautiful thing about it is? She wasn’t going to lose that weight anyway!

Now, what do I mean by that? Those lbs weren’t going to come off if she hadn’t started this challenge, at least not so impressively, and because she did the challenge, she lost that weight. She set her life in motion and created that weight loss for herself.

That has been my approach to this challenge the last few weeks. Whatever I achieved and didn’t… Those things weren’t going to happen anyway! Do you realize how empowering that shit is? Take that leap of faith because what you are about to do, wasn’t going to happen anyway!

Without taking that leap, my buddy Kevin wouldn’t have lost 145 lbs in a year and a half! Without taking that leap, my friend Kerri wouldn’t have completed her first Triathlon while having MS. Without taking that leap, my friend Bridget wouldn’t have lost 60 lbs and taken her life back! Without taking that leap, my sister in-law Rachel would’t have completed an entire screenplay!

I mean these are some phenomenal feats no matter how you look at them, and they all started by understanding that there was nothing to lose because none of this was going to happen anyway!

I feel like Robin Williams in “Good Will Hunting” but this message is so important because we hold ourselves back from doing so many things that even if we tried and it didn’t come out the way we wanted, it wasn’t going to happen anyway! we have the ability to decide how our life goes and it is only by taking those bold steps that we will ever really get to where we want to be.

This “mantra” if you will has given me something so powerful, it has given me permission to start taking more bold and brave actions and experiencing whatever comes along with them because as long as I keep taking those actions I can’t fail, the only way I fail is if I quit and as I said previously, that is not an option any more!

15 weeks down…

September 18, 2016

Posted by Ran Isner


Honestly I can’t belIeve that there’s only one week left to this challenge. I woke up this morning by my partner in crime telling me that she was gonna take kids to Long Island to have breakfast with her mother so I could sleep in and the old Ran would have taken that offer with two hands… but I didn’t. I told Marie that I wanted to go with them because I’d rather spend that time with my family than sleep and I was setting my intention for a day of gratitude.

If there is one thing I have learned from this challenge and I can’t stress it enough is that we must make it a priority to express gratitude for all that we have in our lives and embrace where we are at and who we are being at any given moment.

I know you have heard this from me before but if there is anything I wish for you to take away from all that I have written in the past 15 weeks is that we have so much to be grateful for and that by living life through gratitude we enhance every experience we have.

Since I started practicing gratitude my marriage got stronger, I  connecting on a deeper level with people and my stress level has decreased tremendously. You see, I was focusing on all the negativity in my life and acted as if life was happening to And I was merely a bystander with no power and no choice and that is no way to live life.

Today was about family for me. I started my day by spending time with my mother in-law and sister in-law and ended my day by spending time with my father in-law and step mother in-law. I don’t take these moments for granted as not every person has that so I am fully aware of how immensely fortunate I am.

So so much gratitude and love y’all!

Results:

Weight:156.6( +2.8 since last week, -.1 since start)

Cleanse days:1

Workouts: 3( 2 kickboxing, 1 Jiu Jitsu)

Book I am reading: 50 Ways To Yay by Alexi Panos

What I would like to be acknowledged for this week?

Letting go of stress. It will no longer dominate my being.

Human AF

September 14, 2016

Posted by Ran Isner

 

The conversation I’ve been having with myself all week is that I kept telling m,myself that I will get organized and I have yet to do one thing about it. On a call with my coach last week I said that once my new planner comes I will sit down and I will organize my shit once and for all.

Guess what? The planner came today and I have done jack! the most disturbing part is that I felt guilty about not doing anything but made excuses as to why I didn’t. I know that I am not alone in this, that is what’s called being human as fuck and being human fucking rocks!

It’s awesome when I come to these realizations because it means that at least I am aware of the stuff that’s holding me back and now is the time to break the old habits and patterns and push on through. The first step to reaching that next level is awareness and it’s also very important that we recognize our successes. Success is also about being human because we have all experienced success of some sort at some point in our lives and it deserves to be acknowledged and celebrated.

During the past 15 weeks I have been writing this blog twice a week, started practicing martial arts, said yes to things I would never say yes to before and lived my life with an abundance of gratitude and love. I don’t take these things for granted because those are things that wouldn’t have happened anyway unless I made a choice to pursue them and my life has change exponentially for the better.

There are only a week and a half left for this challenge and whatever I achieve by the end of it is the cherry on top because I created it, all of it! It has allowed me to fall back in love with myself and experience what it was like to be fully self expressed again. I fell in love with the process instead of focusing on the result.

I invite you to examine where you can push yourself to the next level and also to examine your success. Understand that nothing is good or bad, nothing is right or wrong and everything is just what’s so.

My name is Ran Isner and I am HUMAN AS FUCK!

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