Week 12 – Take a cha-cha-cha-chance

August 24, 2016

The title for my video blog post this week was “Birthdays – what does it mean to you? Dread or delight?”

Because, like it could go either way right?

So for maybe the last 10 birthdays, I’ve noticed that I am more dread than delight.  I had all these wild expectations of my loved ones of how I thought they should act on my birthday.  What they SHOULD buy me, give me, do for me, say to me, etc.  And guess what, it almost never was exactly what I wanted.  Then I’d get to be all pissed and indignant all day – which I didn’t want, and yet it kept happening every year.

The worst, was the year my husband gave me the Six Feet Under box set of DVDs. On my birthday.  From my husband.  It was not pretty.  Did I mention that he worked next door to a Best Buy at the time?  What I made this mean was that he… a) didn’t put much thought into my gift… b) didn’t really love me…c) I don’t deserve to be loved.  I think in critical thinking terms that’s…

If p \to  q = no one could ever love me

Way harsh for a birthday, amiright?

This year, I was determined to focus on what’s important and not get stuck in a rut of what my birthday wasn’t.  What helped a little this year is that it fell on a Tuesday, so it was a regular work day.  Plus we had already celebrated over the weekend when  we got away for about 24 hours to PA for a little dinner and gambling.  At the casino, I was very lucky and won at roulette 3 times in a row!! First 23 came out (my bday), then 34 (my age at the time) and finally 29 (my daughter’s bday).  Then my luck ran out!  I expected to win and I did. Thank you Sands for paying for my trip!

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My Family, this is what’s important!

I decided this year I was going to focus on what I’m grateful for on my birthday rather than expecting every action or non-action to mean something.  I know my husband loves me, and even if he gives me a crappy gift (he didn’t), that doesn’t change.  There were a few rough spots during the day of plans getting changed but I took it in stride.  I kept reminding myself to be grateful every time something didn’t go the way I wanted.  And I gotta say, it was a lovely birthday.

Plus I had a few cheat meals, which I enjoyed and now it’s back to the challenge and finishing strong with these last 4 weeks!

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Flowers as a gift from my coach for reaching my Birthday weight loss goal!

Week 12 Results

Weight: 189.2 (-7.8 since start, +1.4 change since last week)

Cleanse days completed this week: 1 (12 total for the challenge)

Workouts: 0 (30 total for the challenge)

Non-Scale Victory:  Going out for my bday in heels and a top that necessitated a strapless bra.  I have always said that I opted for comfort over fashion, but the truth is I was also insecure about wearing more sexy outfits and that I would look fat.  I felt great, and I was a little uncomfortable, but I felt like it was worth it because I was owning my sexy!

What I want to be acknowledged for this week:  Trying some new things this week in my diet to jumpstart things and see if I can keep the momentum going with my weight loss.  Also, for not eating everything on my plate when we were out for several meals over the last few days.  I was able to actually stop eating when I was full, which used to be a struggle for me in the past (because I’d feel guilt or FOMO if I didn’t finish the food I’d ordered).  So over that!

Book I am reading this week: You Are a Bad Ass, by Jen Sincero

This week’s title inspired by: Birthday, performed by Paul McCartney & Ringo Starr, live at Radio City Music Hall 7/7/10, because I was there and I saw it live!

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