Down To The Wire

August 31, 2016

Posted by Ran Isner

It is almost 10:30 at night and I am sitting down to write this blog entry. To be honest with you, if my wife hadn’t said that she still needs to write her blog entry I wouldn’t have remembered to write mine. I have been doing this for 13 weeks now so how could I have almost forgotten to do this today?

For the past two weeks I have been holding myself back, textbook upper limit shit. I am breaking through on so many levels and I still get my shit organized. On top of all of that I am the procrastination king! I completely didn’t do any of my assignments for my nutritional cleansing business team calls because i waited till the last minute and then there was no time left. Now, I’m not going to give you the excuse of “I just didn’t have time” because that is not true! There is always time, it’s a matter of prioritizing. In order for me to move forward I require prioritizing the things that will propel me forward, not the ones that will hold me back. I Still haven’t scheduled my days in a way that I can actually accomplish my goals for the day, the week, the month and the year. Yes! I require to be that specific if I am to go to the next level. Will the world end if I don’t accomplish these things? No it won’t, but I will also stay exactly where I am and that’s unacceptable to me at this stage in my life.

This is the most action I have taken in a ridiculously long time and it feels so good! I am in a space where I can acknowledge that. However, I am also in a place where anything less than that is no longer workable. I know for a fact that I was put on this earth to change people’s lives. I was put here to show them that they could live a life by their own design if they choose to do so. It is through the “Light Yourself On Fire” challenge that I discovered that. Now, I require the skills involved in taking on this kind of leadership and the first step is organization. Leaving things for the last minute is exhausting! The guilt,self deprecation and anxiety involved fucking suck! There is no room for those emotions in my life anymore! I am so done with this!

I am extremely proud of myself for the progress I’ve made and I am also aware of where my opportunities to grow are. We are always growing and evolving and that is a beautiful thing. Life is a beautiful dance, sometimes you lead it and other times it leads you because after all, we are only human, right?

As I am writing these words, I am becoming present to what I am grateful for today. I am grateful for having this forum where I get to share my thoughts and insights. I am grateful for you for taking the time to read it and hopefully resonating with some of it. I am  most grateful for my family as they are my greatest source of inspiration.

No more of this down to the wire shit!



Love Louder gratitude quote
Today’s quote from Preston Smiles was all about practicing gratitude in tough times. As a business owner, everyday there are new challenges – whether its my clients, teammates, kids, colleagues, fellow human beings, whoever! There’s always wall kicking moments.
But I can’t afford to let those wall kicking moments turn into a pasta/chocolate fest on the couch in front of Mad Men reruns (anyone else do that?) Because I have too much do achieve in this life and too many people looking to me for leadership. I have so many goals to achieve that I literally can’t lose a day to feeling sorry for myself. And believe me, I have lost plenty of days in the past 35 years doing just that. We call it “being in a funk” or “feeling out of sorts” or just being “in a bad mood.” It happens all the time, and we are so used to it as a society that we just accept it and assume it will pass. Or we act out in order to make the pain stop.
The only way I knew to get out of it before was to literally NUMB the pain with TV and FOOD. That was my only coping mechanism. Which means, I know the exact moment that Pete Campbell confesses his love to Peggy Olson on Mad Men, and that I’ve lost the same 20lbs 3x in my life. But it also means I haven’t achieved my weight/money/life goals yet.
So today, when I received some crappy news (nothing major, just annoying crappy stuff), and I felt the funk coming on I flipped a switch in my brain.
“What are 3 things you are grateful for in this moment?”
Despite the crappy news, despite people letting me down, being predictable, and generally not having integrity – What. Can You. Be. Grateful. For. Marie?
-my daughter singing Twinkle Twinkle to me today
-the very challenges I am pissed off about now are giving me an opportunity to grow
-incorporating music back into my life as part of a new chorus in my neighborhood
There’s tons of other stuff too, but 3 things seems manageable right now.
When you’re feeling the funk coming on, try it. Just stop and write down 3 things you are grateful for, and somehow it seems easier to deal with. If you can master this skill, then even when really horrible shit happens you can still find a ray of sunshine through the darkness. And that’s gonna come in handy someday, I can feel it.

Week 12: The Final Stretch

August 28, 2016

Posted by Ran Isner

3 months down, one month to go. The past three months were a bit of a whirlwind, what with introducing all of these new habits, creating a workout routine and posting two blogs a week consistently to reaching my upper limits and letting my mind temporarily derail me from my goals. Overall I am very proud of ow far I’ve come.

I still have a book and a half to read and a bunch of workouts and cleanse to catch up on and now it’s time to hunker down and push through the resistance and upper limits. It’s much more pleasant to think back on how good it felt to accomplish the things I’ve accomplished so far than to focus on the things that I haven’t quite given a 100% on. Although, it is importantly to recognize those and learn from it. Another thing that I have to remind myself is that it’s all good because I am growing from all of it. I am on the court and I’m playing.

I am looking forward to the next 4 weeks and breaking through the barriers that I set up for myself when I thought I wasn’t good enough. How fucking stupid was I! Of course I am good enough! In fact I am pretty awesome if I say so myself and it is so powerful to be able to finally acknowledge myself for that. I am so proud of the progress I made and am so excited to crush it in the next month.


Week 12:

Weight: 154.4(-0.8 since last week, -2.3 since start)

Cleanse days: 0

Workouts: 3(2 Jiu Jitsu, 1 personal workout)

Book I am reading: The Big Leap By Gay Hendricks

What I would like to be acknowledged for this week:

I would like to acknowledge myself allowing myself to be in a funk this week and snapping out of it as well. Being in a funk is a way for our souls to tell us that it’s time to rest a little bit and recharge but also to allow us to recognize that it is an upper limit and that means that good things are ahead.

The title for my video blog post this week was “Birthdays – what does it mean to you? Dread or delight?”

Because, like it could go either way right?

So for maybe the last 10 birthdays, I’ve noticed that I am more dread than delight.  I had all these wild expectations of my loved ones of how I thought they should act on my birthday.  What they SHOULD buy me, give me, do for me, say to me, etc.  And guess what, it almost never was exactly what I wanted.  Then I’d get to be all pissed and indignant all day – which I didn’t want, and yet it kept happening every year.

The worst, was the year my husband gave me the Six Feet Under box set of DVDs. On my birthday.  From my husband.  It was not pretty.  Did I mention that he worked next door to a Best Buy at the time?  What I made this mean was that he… a) didn’t put much thought into my gift… b) didn’t really love me…c) I don’t deserve to be loved.  I think in critical thinking terms that’s…

If p \to  q = no one could ever love me

Way harsh for a birthday, amiright?

This year, I was determined to focus on what’s important and not get stuck in a rut of what my birthday wasn’t.  What helped a little this year is that it fell on a Tuesday, so it was a regular work day.  Plus we had already celebrated over the weekend when  we got away for about 24 hours to PA for a little dinner and gambling.  At the casino, I was very lucky and won at roulette 3 times in a row!! First 23 came out (my bday), then 34 (my age at the time) and finally 29 (my daughter’s bday).  Then my luck ran out!  I expected to win and I did. Thank you Sands for paying for my trip!


My Family, this is what’s important!

I decided this year I was going to focus on what I’m grateful for on my birthday rather than expecting every action or non-action to mean something.  I know my husband loves me, and even if he gives me a crappy gift (he didn’t), that doesn’t change.  There were a few rough spots during the day of plans getting changed but I took it in stride.  I kept reminding myself to be grateful every time something didn’t go the way I wanted.  And I gotta say, it was a lovely birthday.

Plus I had a few cheat meals, which I enjoyed and now it’s back to the challenge and finishing strong with these last 4 weeks!


Flowers as a gift from my coach for reaching my Birthday weight loss goal!

Week 12 Results

Weight: 189.2 (-7.8 since start, +1.4 change since last week)

Cleanse days completed this week: 1 (12 total for the challenge)

Workouts: 0 (30 total for the challenge)

Non-Scale Victory:  Going out for my bday in heels and a top that necessitated a strapless bra.  I have always said that I opted for comfort over fashion, but the truth is I was also insecure about wearing more sexy outfits and that I would look fat.  I felt great, and I was a little uncomfortable, but I felt like it was worth it because I was owning my sexy!

What I want to be acknowledged for this week:  Trying some new things this week in my diet to jumpstart things and see if I can keep the momentum going with my weight loss.  Also, for not eating everything on my plate when we were out for several meals over the last few days.  I was able to actually stop eating when I was full, which used to be a struggle for me in the past (because I’d feel guilt or FOMO if I didn’t finish the food I’d ordered).  So over that!

Book I am reading this week: You Are a Bad Ass, by Jen Sincero

This week’s title inspired by: Birthday, performed by Paul McCartney & Ringo Starr, live at Radio City Music Hall 7/7/10, because I was there and I saw it live!

Pledge Of Allegiance

August 24, 2016

Posted by Ran Isner

A little over 11 years ago I moved to the US to study acting. After my freshmen year I met my wife and 4 years later we got married. All my life people told me that I should live in America because I know everything there is to know about American pop culture that i might as well be American.

One never knows where life will take them and my life happened to bring me here. I believe wholeheartedly that I was meant to come here so I could meet my amazing wife. I was meant to be on this journey that brought me here and has me writing these words. With her I feel that I am right where I need to be, and we have two beautiful children which further affirms my belief.

Not too long ago I started my naturalization process and by the end of this process I will be an American citizen. I like to keep myself up to date on what happens in this country and basically be well informed. The way I see it is, if I live here I might as well have a say in where this country is headed.

This decision was not a difficult one to make. My life is here, my family is here and this is where I want to be. I’m not saying I don’t miss Israel, I do, and I think that I sometimes block those emotions from coming out because I feel guilty. I feel that I haven’t been in touch with my Israeli self and that includes introducing Israel and it’s customs to my children. I have wanted to assimilate so much to make it easy on myself that I have been neglecting my roots. As I am writing these words I am getting very emotional because I don;t want to feel that guilt anymore. The fact that I am becoming an Amrican doesn’t mean that I must forget where I came from.

Today I went to the USCIS processing center for my biometrics. That means that They took my fingerprints, a photo and my signature for record keeping. I realized that that’s the signature is going to be on my passport eventually! It wasn’t after I left there that I really understood the magnitude of it all. At the naturalization ceremony, you pledge to renounce your allegiance to any other country and as I was reading those words I felt a pinch. At that moment, when I let it sink in, it felt like I had given something up right then and there. Fun fact! Israel is one of the only countries that the US allows it’s citizens keep their citizenship thus becoming a dual citizen.

I am very grateful to be in the position I’m in and I am not taking it for granted. I know that I have exhibited some upper limit symptoms this week because I have been off my routine and have been allowing myself to take my eyes off the prize. This is a great thing that’s happening yet my mind and my ego are so afraid of change that they convince me that I shouldn’t be this happy.

Another thing I am grateful for? This blog. This medium a gives me the opportunity to let things out. It allows me to be present, raw and real and be who I really am. No masks, not stories, only truth.

Thank you all for taking the time to read this, I really appreciate it.

Posted by Ran Isner

This week was all about my upper limits. 

On Wednesday on our team call I suggested I would talk about upper limits because it’s somethings that resonates with me and I thought it would be helpful for the team to understand more about that. When I was preparing for the call I realized I forgot the book and whatever notes I had from it. I quickly understood what was happening, I was stepping into a leader’s role and as excited I was about that, my mind was trying to hold me back from it because it was unfamiliar.

Just being able to recognize that was such a gift because in the past I would freak out and I didn’t this time. I was so calm about it that I made new notes and the call was fine.

I am reaching the point where I am going to the next level and my resistance is in full force. I’m letting myself off the hook for things I shouldn’t and I know I can push myself even further. The thing is this has happened many times before but I was oblivious to it. All I knew was the overwhelm and the anxiety and I was comfortable with that.

When it comes to working on yourself, the work is ongoing. The work is not about fixing because there is nothing to be fixed, it’s about growth and you never stop growing. 

I started a 16 week physical transformation challenge after coming back from our company’s even in Vegas because I understand that the work never stops and through this my spirit and soul are also getting the work they need to sustain and nourish me.

I understand now that in order to maintain this feeling of elation and satisfaction I must immerse myself in this work.

Now, more than ever I am ready to do that because I never want to lose this feeling, why would I.

Week 11 results:

Weight: 155.2( +1.6 since last week, – 1.5 since start)

Cleanse days- 2

Workouts- 2(  1 kickboxing and 1 Jiu Jitsu)

Book I am reading- The Big Leap by Gay Hendricks

What I want to be acknowledged for this week: 

I went on the call and slated it.

Marie + Bathing Suit = Facing Fears

It’s not surprising that after 5 days in Vegas my weight is up this week.  I definitely let loose a bit and had some meals that included gluten and dairy.  I wasn’t planning on it, but the food looked so good and the allure of “vacation” was strong.  I did my best to stay on track drinking my shakes 1-2 times a day and I avoided unnecessary snacking, but being away gave me an excuse to be less than rigorous about my choices.

I did one cleanse day when I got back to just reset a little which helped me stop with the unhealthy choices.  It’s so easy to keep going down that path once you get home and there’s the stress of unpacking and settling back in, but I was determined not to let the holiday continue!

My husband Ran also came home and did a 2 day cleanse and is at his lowest weight so far for the challenge this week.  We literally came out of the event in Vegas with nothing holding us back from our health and wealth goals.

My birthday is next Tuesday and I’m turning THIRTY FIVE.  My goal was to be at my lowest weight in 3 years, and I am happy to say that I’ve achieved it!  I am very proud of my progress so far.  I have new goals for the rest of the challenge that I am working towards for the next 5 weeks.  This challenge ain’t over till it’s over!

Week 11 Results

Weight: 187.8 (-9.2 since start, +3.4 change since last week)

Cleanse days completed this week: 1 (11 total for the challenge)

Non-Scale Victory:  I went to my dad’s for a quick dip in the pool and managed to bring my shake with me.  So many times in the past I would have just eaten whatever was available and not taken the time to prepare for myself.  This time I brought the shake, and drank it (!) and had a little self-care victory!

What I want to be acknowledged for this week:  Meeting my goal of being at my lowest weight in 3 years on my birthday!

Book I am reading this week: You Are a Bad Ass, by Jen Sincero

This week’s title inspired by: Can’t Hold Us, by Macklemore & Ryan Lewis

Posted by Ran Isner

Are you serious? Or curious?

Have you ever been asked this question? This question is something we ask prospective coaching clients in our nutritional cleansing business. I’ve heard that question mentioned many times but I don’t think I’ve ever taken the time to understand what that question really means.

I know this about myself. I have followed through on very little in my life. To be fair, the things I’ve followed through on were pretty huge. I was a top gymnast, I moved to the US when I was 25, I graduated College with honors, I married the woman of my dreams and had two beautiful children with her and we bought an apartment. Pretty impressive right? I know it is, but the trick is to follow through on the little things that are not quite as life  changing at first.

What I mean by that is that I was lacking integrity. My word wasn’t worth much because I kept making promises and never making good on them. I’m talking about housework and things to do with the household. I would promise I would take care of things and forget to actually take care of them, you know, the everyday kind of stuff.  It hurt me in my professional life and even more severely in my personal life. My marriage was on the line because my word was worth nothing and my wife felt that she couldn’t count on me to be there for her and our children if I was not being my word. That was both my rock bottom and my wake up call.

Going to therapy and working on my own personal development has helped me grow as a person, husband, father and fellow human being but I needed that jolt to help me face who I was being in the world. I was a man without a word. I wasn’t serious, hell I wasn’t even curious! I was going through life like a zombie, hoping that something will come to me by way of a miracle.

Ever since the event I attended with Marie in Arizona, a monumental shift has happened within me. They say “when the student is ready, the teacher will appear”. I was ready, ready to finally be a man of my word. There are still moments where I catch myself being out of integrity but I no longer beat myself up for it, I acknowledge it and embrace it because that is the only way to grow.

I finally realized that I had to be a man of my word with myself before I was a man of my word with others. I have been letting myself down for so many years but I never gave it any significance because I didn’t love my self enough to realize I matter. Loving myself created a space for me to pursue the things that will propel me forward and that will allow me to create a life by my design and not a life by default. I am creating my own opportunities instead of waiting for them to magically appear.

Being curious is great, it means that you are moving in the right direction but being curious will not get you to where you want to be. Being curious will not ignite the fire you require to take it to your next level, whatever that may be for you.

For the longest time I didn’t do anything with my business but I had this vision of freedom and abundance that I hoped I would attain one day. To quote a famous line from “Gone With The Wind”, “wishin’ ain’t gettin’!” How will I ever achieve the freedom and abundance I desire if I don’t become serious about what it is I want to achieve?

For the first time ever in my life I am ready to put in the work required for me to pursue and achieve my goals. I am coachable, open to new experiences, creating new healthy habits, ridding my life of chaos( I am actually working with a schedule now!) but most importantly, I am being a man of my word.

So tell me, are you ready to get serious about your life? or are you content with being curious?

Week 10: Now what?

August 14, 2016

Posted by Ran Isner

I’m still riding the high of the convention I attended with my wife this past week. My journey with the nutritional cleansing company we have partnered with has led me to this moment.

I haveneen to their events before and I was riding high father those as well. The difference was that I didn’t have the belief and by that I mean belief in myself. 

I know the products work. I am a living, breathing testament to that. What I was lacking was the belief that anyone would actually want to listen to what I have to say.

At the airport on the way back from the convention I did something  I had never done before. I PROSPECTED! A guy behind me in the line for Starbucks was listening to the conversation of the people in front of us and saw my company name on my backpack and asked “what is this company? I’ve never heard of it before”. We got to talking and since his wife is a stay at home we suggested we set up a call with her. Will anything come of it? Who knows? The point is, I had the confidence to engage in a conversation with a total stranger about the business.

Having the conversation is not hard, it’s the story we tell ourselves about the conversation that makes it an insurmountable challenge. The point is, I shouldn’t be afraid to fail because at least Insm doing something whereas before I did nothing and was wondering why the business isn’t growing.

So now what? Comfort zone be damned! That shit never comforted me anyway!

One of the Millionaires in our business has a saying ” Yes builds your business, the No’s build your character”

I will hear plenty of no’s in the process but I will welcome them. Why? Because what I learn from them is invaluable. You only fail if you quit and I have no fucking intention of quitting.

Week 10:

Weight: 153.6( +2.0 since last week, -3.1 since start

Cleanse days: 0

Workouts: 2 ( Zumba, home workout)

Book I am reading: The Big Leap by Gay Hendricks

What I would like to be acknowledged for this week:

I prospected in the airport!!!


Marie at Gala 2016 (left), Marie & Ran (right)

Turning back the clock this week as I’ve broken through on my weight in a MAJOR way.  Remember 2010?  The year that gave us the Gulf Oil Spill and the Apple Ipad?  Well I haven’t weighed this little (!) since 2010!  Since I’ve recorded my weight on My Fitness Pal since the beginning of 2013, I have a pretty good record of what I weighed and when.  If I get time, I’ll plot it out on a graph for you all complete with the all the emotional lampposts that influenced it all.  Some years I was not in the mood to take care of myself it seems.  And I am always one for a little Microsoft Excel spreadsheet action.

2010 was also the last time before I started having kids.  I became pregnant with my son Dylan in November 2010 at 195lbs.  It was a difficult year for me prior to that.  Honeymoon bliss had worn off and my husband was out of work.  I didn’t feel as connected to my husband as I had before we’d gotten married.  Plus, I was stalled at work having been in the same position for 3 years with no promotion in sight.  I was feeling stuck, disconnected and uninspired.  In 2008 I’d released 23lbs and in 2010 I put it all back on.

In between having my two children I did my best to release the weight and the closest I got was 185.4.  Then, I decided to get pregnant (again)!

Now, I’m working on my health not just from a calorie standpoint but also a mindset transformation.  Before when I succeeded at losing weight, it was because I was dealing with the symptoms (being fat) and not the root cause of the problem (my mindset around food/eating).  That’s why I would always rebound, I wasn’t treating the root cause.  Now that I’ve found the best system for my body to lose weight AND I’m working on my mindset, I am deliriously happy.  My goal is finally within reach.  I am poised to keep the weight off this time around.

I’m sure you want to know what secret sauce of mindset training I am doing to cause all these breakthroughs.  I’d love to tell you, but it’s not just a silver bullet method.  I’m coaching with experts, spending time at Landmark, reading books, listening to podcasts, working with a naturopathic doctor, connecting with my colleagues, pushing myself at the gym, and so many other new behaviors.  It’s not just 1 thing, it’s so many things that I’ve exposed myself to over the past 22 months that have lead me to this point.  And I’m sure there’s more for me to do so that I can achieve my goals, so I don’t stop moving forward. We never stop working on ourselves otherwise we start to slip back.

Doing this 16 week challenge with Ran has been so wonderful for our relationship.  We are connecting and supporting each other with cleanse days and workouts.  We are a stand for one another to achieve our health goals.  We are enjoying spending time together coaching our team and building our business.  We feel kinda like newlyweds again.  We are deliriously happy in our relationship after being together for 11 years.  It’s truly magical.

Week 10 Results

Weight: 184.4 **New Lowest Weight!!** (-12.6 since start, -5.2 change since last week)

Workouts: 2 (1 Bootcamp, 1 Zumba, 28 total since start)

Cleanse days completed this week: 2 (10 total for the challenge)

Non-Scale Victory: Everything to do with the gala I attended on Tuesday night was a non-scale victory.  Wearing a new dress, feeling confident in it, doing my own hair, feeling sexy, and not getting all weird and anxious about it.  Getting ready without drama, tears and anxiety is the best non-scale victory for me.  The day of my wedding I was so nervous about my dress that I cried while I was putting it on.  I never want to deal with that again.

What I want to be acknowledged for this week:  Finally planning for a day at the pool with my kids and actually packing myself healthy food.  Packing for my trip to Vegas with ease.  Getting up at 6am for Zumba (which I’ve only done once before) and breaking through my fear about being the most uncoordinated person there.

Book I am reading this week: You Are a Bad Ass, by Jen Sincero

This week’s title inspired by: Delirious, by Steve Aoki ft. Kid Ink

A Life To Live For

August 10, 2016

Posted by Ran Isner

We all know that saying “it’s to die for” we use something to describe something so amazing that we would actually give our lives to be able to experience. Let’s think about that for a second

Jeff Combs, a friend and business mentor tends to disagree with the premise of that saying and so he turns the phrase on it’s head and says “it’s to live for”.

The latter approach resonates with me more than the former. Nothing is worth sacrificing one’s life no matter how amazing it is. I would much rather live my life to the fullest and experience all the amazing things I see in my mind’s eye.

Luckily, I’ve found the vehicle that will allow me to do just that. You know what the kicker is? Living the life I love is a total biproduct of the path I’ve chosen to take. My wife and I have been working for about 2.5 years with a health and wellness company that offers solutions in weight loss, healthy aging, performance and wealth creation. 

The company’s mission is to free people of physical and financial pain which is something I am proud to align myself with. By helping people achieve their health and financial goals I am able to earn residual income which allows me to pursue the life of my dreams.The only issue was that I wasn’t in a place where I thought that I was capable of assisting people with achieving their health and wealth goals and I was paralyzed by fear. 

What I didn’t get was that by allowing myself to be paralyzed by fear I was depriving the people in my life from the possibility of living a life they love. I had such amazing results with the products and have seen people replace their full time income with the residual income from the business first hand yet I didn’t have the belief in myself to take action and connect people with these life changing products.

Today was the last day of the company’s convention here in Las Vegas and myself and 14,000 other people were urged to go out there and change people’s lives and for the first time in 2.5 years I am ready and excited to do just that.

Every person deserves to live a healthy and prosperous life and I was always a stand for that but up until recently I didn’t believe it for myself, so how could I have enrolled others in that vision?

The last two months were the game changers for me. Creating the new healthy habits, having consistency and rebuilding my self esteem were instrumental in crafting my posture about our business and cementing my belief in my ability to inspire people to live the life of their dreams.

I carry myself in a completely different manner and have a new found self confidence that makes me feel 10 feet tall. I feel sexy for the first time in my life and I am owning it.

Me at Celebration 2016 Gala

I have been extremely fortunate in these past 2.5 years because my wife Marie never lost faith in me. She knew that there was greatness in me and was persistent in pushing me to rediscover that greatness. She has been a stand for me to live the life I was meant to live and fulfill the role I was meant to fulfill, which is being a stand for people living the life they were meant to live. She has been on her own journey and is blossoming into this powerhouse that I could not be more proud and in awe of.

Marie at Celebration 2016 Gala

I am so proud of how far we have both come and am proud to partner with a company who is fully committed to transforming people’s lives and I will not apologize for that ever again. I intend to keep being a stand for people to live the life of their dreams and to have experiences that are “to live for”.

Week 9: My Tribe

August 8, 2016

Posted by Ran Isner

One of the things I love about this journey is that I get to share it with people. Whether it’s my family, friends, Facebook friends or whomever is reading it independent of those categories, you are my tribe and I want to thank you for being a part of this transformational journey.

In the coming week I will be among my nutritional cleansing tribe in Las Vegas for Celebration. It is the biggest event that the company my wife and I are partnered with holds every year. It is using these products and being presented with the business opportunity that has brought me to this stage in my life that I a finally ready to invest in myself and recognizing what it is that I have to offer to this world. 

It is being around like minded people who share the same goals I have that keeps me motivated to better myself and eliminate the limiting beliefs I’ve held on to for such a long time. I am beginning to understand what it means to feel 10 feet tall and unshakable. 

I want to thank you again, my tribe, for being such an important part of this journey and for having my back in this pivotal junction in my life.
Week 9 results:

Weight: 151.6 ( -3.8 since last week, -5.1 since start).

Cleanse days: 2

Workouts: 3 ( 1 Jiu Jitsu, 1 Kickboxing, 1 home workout)

Book I am reading: The Big Leap by Gay Hendricks.

What I would like to be acknowledged for this week:

Staying on task. Not letting my ego detail me from my purpose.

Week 9

I think I finally lit myself on fire.  When I asked Preston Smiles, “How do I inspire the genius in others?” He said, “Light yourself on fire.”  The next day Ran and I created this challenge and decided to share every step of it warts and all.  It’s been kind of amazing to see the ripple effect it has had on my life.  Not only losing weight, but also coming to terms with all the fears I had about releasing this weight and what it would mean to stop struggling.

Last week when I broke through again on my weight loss and hit 187.6 I felt in my bones like, “oh this is what I was supposed to do.”  Not just lose weight, but create all the habits of taking good care of myself that had always alluded me.  Consistency has never really been my strong suit in my life.  I was usually good at committing to activities and seeing them through, but I was always scrambling to get places and make it happen.  I was never great at getting to work on time (or at a consistent time).  I wasn’t great at keeping up with housework, I couldn’t maintain a workout regimen, I couldn’t even consistently write my blog!  The first thing I ever really did consistently was back in 2008 when I counted Weight Watchers points for a solid year.  I hit 173lbs – felt good about myself and went back to doing theater for fun and then I stopped counting points and well, you know how the rest turned out.

Part of this challenge for me has been about sticking to the plan.  Write the blog every Wednesday, take your picture every week, keep up with the videos, get your ass to the gym, cook a few times a week, drink your damn shakes, cleanse 4 days a month.  Just follow the damn instructions (that I wrote btw!).  And somehow by creating all these boundaries, I found my freedom.  I feel like (this is corny) but I feel like I am falling in love with myself for the first time in a long time.  I’m not perfect, I’m not at my goal weight, but I love myself anyway.  I’m not a loser.  I can be sexy and confident and not have to apologize for it.  I can be all these things even when I’m 189.6lbs.

It’s like I’m finally content with who I am when I step on the scale.  I’m not going to let that number define who I should be anymore.

I’m also finally in a place where I can set a goal weight and chart a course to get there. Before I was always too afraid that I’d never reach it so I never even talked about it.  My daughter will be 2 in October, and that’s when I’ll be at my goal of releasing 50lbs.  I am already talking to myself like someone who weighs 170.  I am liberating that Marie right now.  I’m freeing her and she will come forth when the time is right.  When I’ve removed all the excess fear, shame, guilt, jealousy, doubt and resentment from her, she will be who she always was underneath.  It’s not about changing who I am, it’s about becoming who I am.

Week 9 Results

Weight: 189.6 (-7.4 since start, +2.0 change since last week)

Workouts: 3 (26 total since start)

Cleanse days completed this week: 0 (8 total for the challenge)

Non-Scale Victory: Shopping for a new strapless bra to go with gala gown the lovely saleslady at Macy’s offered to measure me.  When she did she informed me I was down to a 34 size on the band, which I haven’t been probably in 5-6 years.  I was so happy!  I’ll never be the 34B average size, but at least having the 34 be a part of my size was such a thrill!

What I want to be acknowledged for this week:  It’s not always been easy for me to rest.  I used to feel like I always had to be doing something to prove my worth.  It was exhausting.  And what would happen is that I would get so burnt out being “on” all the time that I’d end up in bed for an entire weekend binge watching Downton Abbey.  This weekend we had my son’s birthday party and after it, I just rested.  I didn’t force myself to do more.  I just chilled the fuck out.  It was glorious.  And the next day I was in the gym at 9am.

Book I am reading this week: Love Louder, by Preston Smiles

This week’s title inspired by: What’s Life Without Losers, by Mikhael Paskalev

Posted by Ran Isner

It’s amazing how good habits, done consistently, can make you feel like a Million bucks.

I am beyond ecstatic that my training at the Dojo, combined with my home workouts are yielding results, both physical and spiritual. You can see the physical every Sunday when I post my weekly results and the spiritual… That what I want to talk to you about.

My soul was desperate for a routine that included some self care. I had my routine of going to work, then coming home from work and getting in to the home routine. Dishes, dinner for the kids, baths and getting them ready for bed. It’s very easy to settle into that routine and complain about it because then you don’t have to be a cause in the matter. There’s the “I don’t have time” excuse. Seth Godin says” You don’t need more time, you just need to decide”. Simple, right?  It can be.We choose what to fill our days with. We choose to complain about the time we don’t have but how does that serve us? Instead choose to spend your time on things that make your soul happy. Of course we have our responsibilities but our lives are not made up of those alone.

I’m starting to devise a schedule for myself. I now realize that without structure I cannot accomplish all the things I want. Chaos is not conducive to goal achieving.

The age of chaos is over. ‘Tis  the dawn of organization and choice.

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