Push it!

July 27, 2016

Yesterday I went to my Kickboxing class and at the end of the class I said to the instructor “you know, I felt better in last week’s class” and he said to me “I think the reason why you felt the  last class was easier is because you pushed yourself harder this class”. I wasn’t aware I was pushing myself harder, but he most certainly did.

I was tired after class. I haven’t pushed myself this hard in a very long time and that is exactly why I joined this Dojo. I know myself well enough by now and I know that I require the structure of an instructor led class and I require to train with people who push me and motivate me. I require that community because that’s where I thrive. I enjoy seeing people achieve goals they never thought possible and it inspires me to do the same. For most of my life I have been part of a team, whether it was gymnastics, a youth singing group or as a part of an acting conservatory in college, I always enjoyed being part of a community.

In all of those different environments I was able to achieve success. I was national champion in gymnastics. I was in my element performing on stage with my friends at the youth singing group. In college I graduated with honors and earned a bachelor of fine arts degree. I know that it was because of the people I surrounded myself with.

Although I achieved all of this success, and I am finally in a space where I can acknowledge myself for it and not discount it and diminish it, I still struggle with self doubt and stepping into my greatness. The struggle doesn’t exist!Iit’s made up. Nothing is hard, we have been preconditioned to describe things as hard and as a struggle and we give it a negative connotation.

During class, the instructor keeps reminding us to smile because a smile is associated with a positive experience. There is no reason why pushing yourself to your limit should make you grimace instead of having a big old smile. After all, the reason we push ourselves beyond what we thought was possible is to better ourselves, it is to be the people we know deep in our core we were meant to be and that’s quite a reason to smile if you ask me.

Push it! And smile while you do it.

 

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The two newbies at Kickboxing with Sempai

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